Sanctuary of Mind

It's 2018 already y'all! Happy new year thought it's pretty late to say it, but nah it's not that late, yet. So, it's another year for me to live in this chaotic yet beautiful place and another year for me to have some new goals. I've done so much in 2017 and I'm grateful for that, I'm really grateful for everything that happened in that year. I mean, without those bad decisions, impulsiveness, and rushed thoughts; I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't feel what I feel, and I wouldn't start to know myself a little bit better than I used to. Since I’ve learned a lot in 2017, I will and I want myself to learn a lot more in 2018 too. So, in that case, all we need is resolution, right? But instead of writing down tons and tons of things to do (or things I won’t do), I will be focusing myself on one thing, only one thing and it is self-love. Yap, I will start to love myself more this year. I might sound a little bit off here because well, let’s face t...

I’ve never been good with memories. Not because I can’t remember things, it’s because I remember everything, every little detail, every nuance. People with that kind of ability—remembering the details and nuances—might be having a photographic memory. I still remember the first word I learnt in English, it was cat, I learnt it from a book, the kind of book which has lot of squares and there is a picture and a word in each square. The cat word and picture were on top left of the left page, each page consisted of two rows and three columns. I felt excited and had lot of jolts in learning that language. The kind of jolt when you know you will do great in it. That was one of my stored memories. Not also having photographic memory, I also have the ability to choose the things I like to remember. I have my own mind palace. Ring a bell of something? Yes, Sherlock also has that. My mind—my brain—it’s like a library and also there is a movie theatre there, I store my memories in the li...

I'm going to love you without an agenda I'm going to let you be the best version of yourself, not making you as one I'm going to give you love you deserve, in kisses, hugs, and cuddles as the forms I'm going to let you be restless of everything, and let you have a rest from everything I'm not going to ask you to certain your feeling over something when you're not ready, I'm going to let you feel what you need to feel and how you want to feel I'm not going to heal you or giving myself a deadline for your healing, I'm going to be with you until you're healed, no matter how long it'll be And I'm going to love you without an agenda, but I'm going to write how much I love you in my agenda.

I would have been in my junior high school's robot team, if I had not stopped coming after the first day of meeting just because I was the only girl who joined. I would have been playing for Alligators--the Surabaya's softball team, if I had not stopped practicing after three months full of sweat just because I was told that I threw and hit like a girl. I would have been joining the swimming team, if I had not quit practicing just because someone told me that my shoulder's too broad for a girl. I would have been running for marathons, if I had not stopped running just because my friends told me that I ran weirdly, as in too weird for a girl. But now I realize I should had not stop coming just because I was the only girl,  I should had be proud of it, as the only girl in the room. I should had not stop practicing just because I was told that I wasn't "boy" enough,  yes I hit like a girl, yes I can br...

Hallo semua. Balik lagi nih nulis, Alhamdulillah saya lancar dah nulisnya (banyak ide, banyak waktu). Mumpung masih minggu terakhir liburan semester kuliah, daripada scroll Instagram ga selesai selesai terus akhirnya iri sama temen yang liburan, yaudah liburan sendiri dengan nulis! Yey! Hmm, cita - cita ya. Kayanya judul ini tuh udah sering banget aku tulis di blog, beda judul, tapi intinya sama. Emang dasaran anaknya yang ambisinya gede, cita - citanya banyak (used to tho) , terus masa depan udah disusun rapi sampe ada chapter-nya segala. Oh iya, ini ketiga kalinya nulis dan post tulisan dengan tema ini di blog. Jadi, bagi yang udah baca sebelumnya, don't be surprised ya sama confenssion di post kali ini. Dulu waktu kecil pasti guru SD pada suka nanyain kalau udah besar mau jadi apa. Macem - macem lah jawabannya dan jujur aja dulu aku paling lancar ngasih jawaban dan juga alasan (iya segitunya) kalau udah ditanya hal begituan.  Tapi... Confession: Sampai det...

Hai semua. Akhirnya balik lagi nulis setelah beberapa minggu ga nulis karena kemakan sama kegiatan dan lain lain. Satu semester kuliah dilewatin lagi ketiga kalinya, Alhamdulillah . Sebenernya keinginan untuk nulis tuh setiap hari juga ada, tapi kayanya nulis laporan praktikum tuh lebih penting kalau udah masuk bulan bulan kuliah, juga ketambahan kegiatan organisasi. Jadinya kadang ide yang udah kekumpul sebanyak itu, ilang gatau masuk drive yang mana yang ada di otak. Alhamdulillah sekarang bisa nulis lagi dah. Dari judul sebenernya udah keliatan ya mau ngomongin apa, emang sih sebelumnya udah pernah sempet aku ( beberapa tahun lalu ) bicarain, tapi setelah aku baca, rasanya tuh masih kurang deh feel nya, kurang greget kali ya? Nah, karena di post ini maunya lebih greget dan heboh (alias meyakinkan dan ga asal ngomong), akhirnya pakai deh Bahasa Indonesia. Biar lebih gampang dicerna dan ga ambigu (tapi masih pake English sih, karena kadang ga nemu kata atau kalimat yang pas...

It's you and always been you. If I start this with a simple word, it's you. Oh, and also love. It's you who talk and talk.  It's you who try to sing songs and always end up losing breath. It's you who write poems just for fun and journals just to keep the memories. It's you who steal a second, split second just to hug me. It's you who live like there's always tomorrow and sometimes there's no tomorrow. It's you who carelessly sing me happy birthday in French. It's you who owe me things, like hugs. It's you who live like a caveman yet also live like a diplomat. One place to another. It's you who speak in other language and leave me knowing nothing. It's you spend hours for your own hobbies. It's you who (not literally) slap me with your feeling, it's sometimes too hard for a T to feel. It's you who keep saying Sherlock sucks. It's you who make me listen to 80's songs. It...

I just had my birthday days ago. I'm officially 20 now. Surprisingly, I asked myself about what have I done all these years. I've reached the 1/5 of my life, but what have I done? And I start wandering the mind palace of mind, achievement and life stories section. We shall begin with achievements first, shall we? Talking about achievement, I like to categorize things, there are two kinds of achievement when it comes to my little world, the small one and the big one. I must say I haven't achieved anything big up until now, since the big one are really big and also it has the main goal of my life, so I haven't achieved big things. About the small one, lot of things I categorized as small yet meaningful (or maybe turning my life around) achievements. I'm not going to talk about what are those (re: achievements), but I'm going to talk about the achievement itself. Some people might think, in one point of their lives, that they haven't done a bit of ...

"What is love?" We asked to ourselves.  "What do you think?" He asked briefly.  "Do you want me to explain it to you? You sure?" I asked him back in confusion, just because I wasn't sure too. In fact, he's always been softer than myself.  "Yeah, please." He answered me, then smiled at me.

Instead of continuing my proposal's event, I'm writing here, in my blog. Finally yes? I spent months on the other blog of mine writing such poems and soppy writing which reflect some things. But I'm kinda missing writing about stuff which is happening in the world these days. Life is pretty rad in 2016, isn't it? Unexpected things happened, this and that. 2016 was basically started with this one gorilla named Harambe and after that, everything went crazy. The craziness doesn't stop, yet. The US Election made everything clear, that this year, will be remembered as "The Year" . The year where the world is basically in a loop of confusion. The highlight of this year's craziness is Trump, yap, that Donald Trump. The one who appeared in one of the Home Alone movie series and that one who made a variety show — ANTM kind of variety show. Just by this year he is becoming the elected president of the United State of America. I know this is already beco...

It's all started up with the time, It's 11.11 and the name you whisper as a little hope isn't the one who is there for you after everything. You whisper the name and then for a second you think it's just your brain doing its routine. You will get over it soon, you've been said it since months ago. It's all started up with a video. You used to share it just to start a little conversation or even a new inside joke. You already copied the link and then you realize, it isn't the right thing to do, it is just not right. Then you remember that you can share it with other, but you don't do it. It's not your thing with the other. It's your thing with this person. Used to be. It's all started up with what you see. The road you used to see with them, the highway you used to use with them just to be in a certain place, the hospital you once visited with them, the place you used to be with them for years, the city's trade...

I'm back everyone. Finally, yes? Well, if there's a competition on the worst blogger ever, I think I'll come out as the winner. But hey, I'm sparing my time to write some words this afternoon, I'm pretty good, aren't I? Like everyone and I do know, when I write something on my blog, something either happening or happened. As for this one—this post, something is happening. A pretty big thing is happening. The thing is inside of me. Basically a war—Civil War, between my mind and my mind. Yap, it's kinda weird to think that I have two minds, but I must say, they are different to each other. So, what thing which can make my minds—glorious minds do a war? Easy. It's about dream, my dream.   And when it comes to my dreams, I will turn into this 5-year-old girl who wants her toy back, she strives for it, even screams for it. I must say that is really ambitious, but I'm proud of being ambitious. In fact, my ambition drives me sane, ke...

Counting days to the national exam which makes my friends and I really stressed up. I mean how can be this thing won't make any stress or pressure for both our brain and life? Some people have different ways to deal with their stress or maybe they don't have any. I have some, thanks God, and some of them are weird but worth to try. I mean, you should deal with it or you'll wrecked yourself. I mean it. Umm, so here are my ways to deal with stress! From a web I read back then that your room represent how your mind is. If it's nicely done, your mind is alright but if it's not then it's not alright. So, whenever I feel stressed up with things in life, I start to clean my room, decorate it with some new stuffs, or maybe at least, make my bed. This one works for me but I don't know if it's you. I always clean my bathroom whenever I feel stressed up. Yes, bathroom. I feel more refreshed than before whenever I finished cleaning my bathroom. Bathro...

" Feminism   is a collection of movements and ideologies that share a common goal: to define, establish, and achieve equal political, economic, cultural, personal, and social rights for women. This includes seeking to establish equal opportunities for women in education and employment." I still remember the day when one of my family said that I have to reduce my swimming routine because it makes my shoulders look broader than the other girls. "What a rude comment." I thought at that time. I live in a society that values beauty more than intelligence, which is pathetic. I think it's not only me who live in this kind society, we live in the world like that. How can be that a very common thought in people nowadays? Because it is already becoming a stereotype. Just for an example, I live in Indonesia, I'm a 100% Indonesian which means I'm an Asian. Some people (or maybe people) of the Western countries think that we are these vulnerable group of w...

Name: Olivia Putri Rosmala Zodiac: Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn , Aquarius, Pisces. Myers-Briggs [ x ]: ISTJ, ISFJ, INFJ, INTJ , ISTP, ISFP, INFP, INTP, ESTP, ESFP, ENFP, ENFJ, ESFJ, ESTJ, ESFJ, ENFJ, ENTJ. The Four Temperaments [ x ]: Melancholic, Phlegmatic , Choleric , Sanguine . Enneagram [ x ]: Type 1, Type 2, Type 3 , Type 4, Type 5, Type 6, Type 7, Type 8, Type 9 .  Hogwarts House [ x ]: Hufflepuff, Gryffindor, Slytherin , Ravenclaw. *got if from here * I dare you to find yours!