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Bicara: Depresi

Halo semua. Akhirnya setelah lumayan lama hiatus nulis, balik lagi nih aku. Karena udah masuk masa masa rada tenang perkuliahan (red: nggak ada kelas), setelah tulisan ini bakal ada beberapa tulisan lagi yang bakalan muncul di blog. Biar ga sepi dah.
Kalian yang paham istilah selebgram pastilah tau berita yang lagi naik banget akhir ini. Iya itu, salah satu mantan seorang selebgram meninggal tiba tiba dan allegedly attempted a suicide act, perlu digaris bawahi ya allegedly-nya. Emang mungkin dasarannya orang Indonesia yang kalau udah kepo, apapun deh dijabanin biar berita tuh dapet yang bener bener nggak ngarang dan alhasil kebuka deh satu satu masalah dari mantan si selebgram ini. Aku juga orangnya gabut ya, gabut sama kepo sih, akhirnya juga ngikutin lah “perkembangan” berita dan info yang ada. Dari intinya sih, yang meninggal sempat depresi dan nggak melakukan suicide act sama sekali. Juga tentang vokalis salah satu band terkenal yang ditemukan meninggal gantung diri dan juga semp…

Agenda

I'm going to love you without an agenda
I'm going to let you be the best version of yourself, not making you as one
I'm going to give you love you deserve, in kisses, hugs, and cuddles as the forms
I'm going to let you be restless of everything, and let you have a rest from everything
I'm not going to ask you to certain your feeling over something when you're not ready, I'm going to let you feel what you need to feel and how you want to feel
I'm not going to heal you or giving myself a deadline for your healing, I'm going to be with you until you're healed, no matter how long it'll be
And I'm going to love you without an agenda, but I'm going to write how much I love you in my agenda.

Things I've Missed

I would have been in my junior high school's robot team, if I had not stopped coming after the first day of meeting just because I was the only girl who joined.
I would have been playing for Alligators--the Surabaya's softball team, if I had not stopped practicing after three months full of sweat just because I was told that I threw and hit like a girl.
I would have been joining the swimming team, if I had not quit practicing just because someone told me that my shoulder's too broad for a girl.
I would have been running for marathons, if I had not stopped running just because my friends told me that I ran weirdly, as in too weird for a girl.
But now I realize
I should had not stop coming just because I was the only girl,  I should had be proud of it, as the only girl in the room.
I should had not stop practicing just because I was told that I wasn't "boy" enough,  yes I hit like a girl, yes I can break your nose.
I should had not quit practicing just because my sho…